在我仍在马来西亚时，我作了两个梦。其中一个梦，我来到一个很高的山，看到神在山顶上，有人告诉我这是神的山，要我站在那山上。当时我不知道什么叫神的山，我看见我带领了一群人跳舞，他们穿著白色的婚纱。
隔了两三天，我又作了同样的梦，来到同一座神的山，领著一群人跳舞，唯一不同的是我穿著血染鲜红的婚纱。
圣灵透过这两个连续相同的梦启示我，我将做的事工，而第二个梦也同时告诉我，我将遇见的事，那就是我将因为这个事工流产，那段经歴对我来说是一个很痛的功课，往后有机会再分享这段经歴。
当时我从未想过要成立舞蹈队，心里还计划著想回国找工作，也没想过是否中国的教会，会接受这样的舞蹈敬拜的方式。那时我并不太在意这两个梦，也不清楚神要成立舞蹈队的用意。而且当时我还有文化和传统的包垘，对于没有人叫我去前面跳舞的情况下，但却要去这么做，感到十分害羞和丢脸。加上当时具我所知没有多少华人教会有这样的舞蹈敬拜团队，我没有任何可参考的模式，对于主要我做的这个事工的目的，我实在不明白。
直到零五年七月，我才到加拿大两年，有一天晚上主带我到第二重天，祂告诉我那是一个介于天上神宝座所在，和地上之间的灵界层，那时我还不曾被教导过有第二重天和第三重天的存在。到了那里，四处云雾辽绕，我看到有一座很大的殿，悬在半空中，殿内有很巨大的柱子，那柱子如同大树，有些柱子甚至如同大山，有些柱子是朱红色的，每个柱子都盘著不同的蛇，每只蛇都比我见过的蛇还要巨大许多，蛇身好像巨树一样粗大。牠们吐著蛇信子，虽然我行走在柱子与柱子之间，但牠们无法伤害我，因为我知道我和主同在，心里很平安，并且我怀里拿著主曾带我去地狱时赐给我的宝剑，所有我不害怕。柱子有二十多条，很整齐地排列，每一条蛇带领著不同支派的邪灵，原来牠们也有自己的支派，而牠们在那里正等著打仗。主向我启示灵界的情况主要是要告诉我，祂所成立的舞蹈敬拜队，主要是要为这场争战作预备，舞蹈敬拜队的功能不单单是一种欢庆，也有争战的含意在里面。
刚开始我不太愿意去做这事工，仅管主已事前带我去看二重天的景况，我仍和主讨价还价，我向主说我的左右手不平衡，动作很僵硬，也不会跳舞，这舞蹈敬拜事工怎么会与我有关系，若是要选事工的领袖，应该是选教会里有舞蹈根基的人，怎么会是我？那时教会内有许多舞蹈人才，光是曾在国内教舞蹈的老师和教授就有几位，也有舞蹈戏剧学院毕业的，我不明白神为什么不叫他们做这事工，而是叫一个完全不懂舞蹈的我去做，而且还是做个领袖去兴起舞蹈队，当时对我来说这是没有道理的事。于是我向祂提出几个要求。
我曾经在马来西亚参与过舞蹈敬拜的服事，那时有一位从英国来的舞蹈老师教导我们，但那些舞蹈动作我早就忘光了，我对主说：如果你真是要我去做这事工，除非祢有教材给我。三天后，以前在马来西亚教舞蹈的老师就寄了一份资料给我，我们已经三年没有联系了，她竟然说要送我二份教舞蹈的CD，随后CD于一个星期就寄到了，我和主讨价的第一个条件竟然成就了，我觉得有点无耐，心想总要难为一下主。于是我想起圣经基甸的例子，他求神给他几次羊毛又湿又干的印证，来确定是神要借他手拯救以色列人（士师记六章36:40）。我心想我也可以学学他，于是蜗蛑魈岢龅诙€条件。
我向主说：开始一个事工一定需要钱，舞蹈的服装及道具如铃鼓、旗子…都需要开支，我既然没有钱，不用我做了吧！但主仍然用耳可听见的声音回答我：「是你！」一个星期后，我从兼职工作赚到一笔钱，我心里知道那笔钱不太可能可以赚到，但主却让我赚到了，祂又满足了我第二个要求。
之后主晚上又来造访我，对我说：「这事工是你做！」但我又向祂提出了第三个要求：「虽然有教材、有钱，但我只有一个人，不然祢要给我人，而且要先告诉我是谁，这些人也要自己来找我，我不要自己去和他们一个一个说。如果真是祢要做的事，祢可以感动我，肯定也可以感动他们！这样我才可以印证是祢叫我做这事工。」当天晚上睡梦中，主就向我清清楚楚显现有哪些人，并且告诉我他们会来找我。那些人都是我认识的，其中只有一位长发半遮面的女孩我没有见过，主对我说我必须等这人来，队伍才齐备，舞蹈敬拜队才可以正式开始。
之后，那些人就陆陆续续来向我分享神给他们的感动，奇妙的是：神让他们在梦里看到我，并且梦里所给的感动，和我的梦部份是重叠的！
舞蹈敬拜队在教会预备了两年后，有一天主告诉我：「我要预备他们出去。」我问主：「要去哪里？」主说：「我已为他们预备一个地方，有人会来找你。」每一次我们出去服事，都不是我们去找人，而是别人来找我们，实在很奇妙！后来我收到一间不认识教会的Email邀请，要我们在主日的时候参加服事，我不知道他们是如何知道我们的。我们就是这样开始走出去的，后来慢慢开始参加一些外面的活动，如在城市广场、密西沙加，也开始和一些团体出去宣教，如参加Jesus in the City, 多伦多环城祷告游行，很奇妙地，神打开很多门带我们出去，同时祂也兴起菲律宾的舞蹈敬拜队，以及一些在舞蹈敬拜上有恩膏的人来帮助我们。
我发现作主的工不是因为我能作，而是因为主祂要作，所以祂把所有一切都预备好了，我们所要做的是回应祂的呼召，然后「去！」，并且忠心在这位置上，我们不必担心下一步祂要带我们去哪里，而是祂自己会来把门打开！
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Forming a Worship Dance team
Back to the time when I was still in Malaysia, I had two dreams. In the first dream, I arrived at a very high mountain. This was God's mountain and He was on the mountain top. I saw I led a group of people dancing and they were all wearing white wedding dresses. After two or three days, I made the same dream again. Through these two consecutive and identical dreams, the Holy Spirit had revealed my future ministry.
At that time I would never consider to form a dance team. With a baggage of cultural and traditional values, I would feel very shy and even humiliating to dance in front of a congregation when not invited. Besides, the few Chinese churches that were to my knowledge did not have a worship dance team giving me no model for a reference.
Until two years after I came to Canada on July of 2005, the Lord took me to the Second Heaven one night. He told me that was a spiritual realm between the Heaven, where God's throne resides, and the Earth. It was filled with clouds and mists. In front of me was a colossal temple hanging in the mid air. Inside the temple were some gigantic columns as profound as a big tree or even a mountain. Each column was wrapped around by a different kind of snake. The snakes were enormous with trunk the size of a big tree and continuously sticking out their forked tongues. Although I was walking among the columns, the snakes could not harm me because I knew I was with the Lord and had much peace in my heart. Also I was carrying a double edged sword which the Lord gave me during a trip to hell hence I was not afraid. There were more than twenty columns all arranged in a very orderly way. Each snake was leading a different tribe of evil spirits. I was marveled to know the evil spirits also had their own tribes and they were awaiting to war.
The main message the Lord revealed this spiritual realm was to let me know the primary purpose of the worship dance team was to prepare for this spiritual war. The function of a worship dance team was not only to celebrate but also to involve in a battle.
At the beginning I was very reluctant to start this ministry even after being shown the Second Heaven. I bargained with the Lord. I said my right and left arms were not balanced; my movements were stiff and I could not dance. Besides, there were many dance talents in our church; such as the dance professor and the graduate from the dance and drama college. I could not understand why God would involve me in a worship dance ministry and therefore I made a few requests.
I said to the Lord, 'If you really wanted me to take up this ministry, you will provide me with the teaching material.' Then after three days, a dance teacher from Malaysia I had not contacted for three years sent me a parcel. To my surprise, she said she wanted to give me two CDs on dance teaching. In this amazing way, the Lord granted my first request. I felt a bit helpless and decided to make life difficult for the Lord. I remembered Gideon from the Bible when he asked God to wet and dry the fleece on two occasions as a confirmation that God wanted to save Israel by Gideon's hand. (Judges 6:36-40). I thought I could mimic Gideon and asked God for a second condition.
I said to the Lord, ' A ministry needs money. The dance costume, the stage property such as tambourines and flags are all legitimate expenditures. Since I don't have the money, you may probably spare me from this responsibility.' But the Lord replied with an audible voice, 'It's you!' One week later, I made some money from a part time job. I knew it was quite impossible to earn this money unless it was the Lord's provision. So again the Lord satisfied my second requirement.
Later the Lord visited me one night and said 'You are to take up this ministry!' Yet I presented the Lord with the third request, 'Although there are teaching material and money, I can't do it all by myself. You need to give me dancers and tell me who they are upfront. They need to approach me instead of I going after them one by one. Because if this is really what you wanted and as you have convicted me, surely you can convict them ! Only then can I confirm this is the ministry you want me to take on.' That night, the Lord showed me clearly the team members in a dream and said they would find me. I knew all of them except one with long hair partially covering her face whom I never met. The Lord said I must wait for this person to come. Until then the worship dance team would be complete and be official to start.
One by one these people came to me and shared with me how God moved them and how they dreamed of me. The amazing part was how their dreams overlapped with mine. Ultimately I promised the Lord to start the worship dance ministry.
At the beginning the attack was fierce. There were many opposition voices. We needed to close our eyes and focused on the Lord while dancing. We eventually moved pass those time and were very proud looking back. Indeed God's way and Man's way are very different !
Two years later, one day the Lord told me, 'I will prepare them to go out.' I asked the Lord, 'to where?' The Lord replied, 'I have prepared a venue for them and someone will approach you.' Each time we served, we did not take the initiative but were invited. This was really wonderful ! Gradually we started to perform outside the church in some functions and started to partner with some organizations for evangelism. God wonderfully opened many doors outside the church and at the same time He raised up a Philippine worship dance team as well as some anointed worship dance experts to help us.
I realized serving in a ministry was not because I was capable; it was because the Lord wanted to do it and so the Lord prepared for everything. Our part was to respond to His calling and 'Go!'. We do not need to worry where the Lord will take us. We just need to be faithful in our position and God himself will open the door !
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